I promised myself that I would go public after three dates. We reached this point now. I have imagined several scenarios in my head. From getting shamed for what I do to going viral. I also accepted that actually no one would care. That’s fine. As long as I keep writing, even if it would just be for myself, I’m doing a great job. Every time I have the urge to check the website stats, I remind myself that I’m here for writing in the first place, not for tracking KPIs.
I commited when I bought the website domain. A financial investment became an emotional investment. Having a real website is a symbolic gesture that shit just got real. It’s there, it’s up, it’s official! No more turning back. I also decided on the 69 Dates concept, refraining from trying to look for something perfect.
A big frustration I had was that people misunderstood my intentions and the whole idea behind it. Maybe it was bad marketing from my side or their reading comprehension skills were below average or they got blinded by the term ‘dating’ or 66 other reasons. But then I realised that I just have to do my thing. You can never please, be liked and understood by everyone, it’s a lost cause. Now I let my writings do the talking. I’m going public, fuck yeah!
What I’m the most afraid of is that I’ll become that 69 Dates guy. That every interaction with a girl, every date is perceived in light of this project. This blog however does not define me. With or without, I’m still the same person. It’s like you think a friend who is an electrician would check out all the electricity cables, fuses and switches when he’s having dinner at your place. Of course, he will pick up on things because that’s his background but that does not mean he’s consciously analysing your electricity setup the whole time. We’ll see. Judge and get judged…
What I hope is that readers will enjoy my posts and maybe start sharing and interacting. But all in all, it’s pure entertainment, not some sort of gospel I’m preaching.
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